Hard. Too much thinking, almost overthinking. Living hidden. Fearing. Enjoying. Easy...sometimes. Promiscuity. Self-compassion. Cowardice. Courage. People. Laughter. Sex. Fun. Breathe. Share. Keep for oneself. Loneliness. Trips. Memories. Family. Friends. Me.So many things going on. So big this whirlpool in which emotions come together and melt in only one being: Me.Leaving all you've always thought is right behind...not easy, is it? Wish I had it...yes. We all need it at one point. Why fearing? Why feeling scared of something you're not even sure it exists? Secrets. Coming. Going. Living in our selves! No...I don't want to house them in me, why holding back? Thoughts are just coming to my head. Popping up. It bursts...Yes. It's me.No, you only think you know me. Yeah, perhaps you've seen me face to face. Maybe we crossed a few words. There's a chance I might've called you my friend but if you really think about it, you know nothing about me. What do I like? What do I feel? How do I feel about this or that? Life can be tricky most of the times and it's up to us to find the way out. Yes. Maybe I do love you honestly...but, how to know it? There's no easy way to do it. I might as well just phone you and tell you the much I care about you and you know whether you take it or leave it.Opening up! Ts'always been a huge deal and it's not 'cuz I want to make one out of it, but it's something I'm learning to do carefully. Caution. That is important. Wow! I did mention caution when the reality is that I've been one of the least cautious people during these last years...where did I put my old good friends in this hierarchy that rules my life? Guess I, unintentionally, buried them somehow. Sex is fun, that I know, but think well who you fuck with. Even the one who claims being the healthiest person on the surface of the Earth can end up hitting you with the jackpot, and I don't mean it in the good sense of the word.Eyes/ I look at them. Yes/ Even tho you don't believe me! I do. Being shallow is not being me. Shit! Such a fat lie! I'm really shallow from time to time. Shame on me, huh? It doesn't really matter once you're so into yourself, covered with a thousand shields trying to hide and protect yourself from life. Life's there!! It won't ever go. So why trying to escape it? Face it! Yes. it's so frigging easy to say...so frigging HARD to do. Opening up. Do not ever wrap yourself in sorrow!.